You don’t love me
The worst part is I know, I know by the way your eyes no longer shine when you look at me, I know by the way you turn your face away when I cry on your shoulder, you don’t love me any more. Why won’t you admit it, why won’t you let me be free. I can’t let go of the chance that maybe you’ll turn around and grab me by the hand and tell me never to doubt your feelings for me again but I know you too well. Your heart has moved on you just don’t want mine to.
She has nothing on me
You made the wrong choice
But you already know that by now, I’m sure
“ There are so many things I will never be able to tell you, questions that will never be answered and I continue to let them eat away at me. I feel as if they are weighing me down like cement blocks chained to my ankles dragging me down to the bottom of the ocean. Wishing you could understand the ways you broke me. Closure? There was no closure for me.”
//insomniac//
“He lied. He lied to me, I guess I was wrong. He told me he loved me. I believed him, but I was so blind. I didn’t know how this happened. I should be smart but I lost him. He cheated on me. He didn’t care, he didn’t care about my pain. Now I’m here trying to figure out what I did wrong, trying to find a way to stop this pain, how to survive this.”
-Unknown
Dear Cheaters…
Sometimes I wonder if cheaters know what they had done to the person they cheated on?
What that action resulted in?
A person who was once comfortable in their relationship, who never questioned their partner about their whereabouts…. Once they’ve been cheated on, it changes them.
The self-esteem drops so low. Their trust is utterly broken. Paranoia is now their best friend. Do you know what you have done?
You’ve broken them. A part of them won’t be able to trust so fully again. They won’t be able to stop questioning themselves. They won’t stop getting anxious and paranoid.
You did this.
You broke a trust that resulted in fracturing a person’s beautiful soul.
Do you know what you did?
What hurts the most
That you are the only one affected by this. You’re the only one sad,crying, angry….etc. The other person is living life like you never existed while you are feeling everything. That’s something I have to come to terms with. I will be okay. I will be okay eventually.
“Being cheated on isn’t a feeling that disappears. Its not a feeling that goes away when you find someone new. Eight years later, I’m still having problems trusting partners. I’m still wondering what it was about me that wasn’t worth your time. I’ve been looking everywhere under my skin to see the reasons that I wasn’t good enough. And no amount of comfort from anyone else will ever give me that reassurance that I’m good enough for them. You broke a part of me that no one will ever be able to fix. Not even me.”— N.A.P.
The 2019’s biggest fool award goes to me
Note to self: Being cheated on hurts so bad. You thought this person you’ve been with would be with you forever. But the sad reality hits you, that the only thing keeping someone is someone who wants to be kept. Its okay. let them go, let them free. Now, focus on you, heal and glow brightly.
Relationship Advice
If your instincts are shooting up red flags about your partners behavior, trust them. Trust yourself.
Even if being honest and open seems like a terrible idea, even if you’re afraid speaking your true feelings might end the relationship, do it anyway.
Don’t bottle everything up and spill it into a diary. Tell your partner. Then and there.
Chances are whatever is bothering you now might just be the beginning.
It’s easier to snuff out a candle fire than one that’s already reached the forest.
I made that mistake. I bottled it all up—every suspicion and instinct—because I knew it’d be upsetting. Avoiding this confrontation because of your fears is actually the beginning of denial.
The longer you tuck these feelings away, the stronger your denial becomes, and the stronger it becomes, the harder it is for you to clearly see what might be happening behind your back.
If you’re still afraid of damaging what you’re striving to save, just remember this: if your partner truly loves you they will listen with an open mind. They won’t judge you. They won’t make you feel guilty/blame you. They won’t try to quickly change the subject.
If your relationship is healthy and strong, communicating your fears will only bring you closer. If the results are anything less, then you deserve a hell of a lot better.
Something about cheating…
I’m posting it because I am sure somebody needs to read this:
You can’t be guilty for being cheated on. Never. It can’t be your fault. No matter how insecure you are, how stressed or aggressive, nothing about you can make someone cheat on you. People don’t cheat if they are not capable of cheating. They cheat because they want to and you can’t be guilty. You can be guilty for being left, but not for cheating.
Stay the fuck away from people who are telling you it can be your fault, they are also cheaters. Only a cheater can understand cheating that way or justify it.
It’s never your fault.
“If he loved you so much, why did he risk it?” Because he didn’t love me enough. Simply put.